random and beautiful

i wonder what it's like
to swing both ways
to love with no cages
to slide thru the bars
without care who you harm

i wonder what it's like
to glide thru the cracks
to go unnoticed when you burn
when you learn not to run
from what hurts and what chases

i wonder what it's like
to live without lovers
to starve without cravers
to hide behind images
you created for others

i wonder what it's like
to be graceless and useless
to be whipped and be beaten
as those people you put up there
to protect you and to love you
fall off their imposing pedestals

the fall might break you
but what if it makes you
who you should've already been

random and beautiful and broken
...and filled to the brim

Stumble It!

all of me

won't let you jade me
like the others

hurt me
slice me
wide open
i'd so rather feel that
than nothing at all

i think you fear the unknown
and don't know how to handle me
i think you know
i'm too much for you
that i deserve more
i think you feel guilty
for holding onto me
when you know
you're not enough
this is NOT enough
when you know
you smother my shine

and so you float
and hover
even though
i know i make you feel
so alive

you wade in me
barely soaking your pant legs
just out of reach
in your bubble of denial
i want you
...up to your neck in me
treading frantically
i want you to jump in
with both feet
into the deep end
of me
sink your teeth in
and dive
fall into me...fall
be immersed in me
swim thru my heart
and swallow
what you need
to survive

and i want that to be...
all of you
...in all of me

Stumble It!